Friday @ 2:30PM (France)

If you can take a minute that day, stop and think of all the accidents that happen stupidly every minute of the day and every day in the year. Yesterday, i got the terrible news that a baby girl i used to babysit till July had drowned. it was a typical accident: she managed to escape her grandparents' view for a minute and fell in a pond.

I feel terrible since then. I couldn't sleep last night and woke up very early this morning. I've spent one of the weirdest days in my life; it was as if the world had stopped moving and i was longing for someone to tell me this was a nightmare, that i could wake up and that all would be fine again.

The baby girl's name was Segolène and she was the cutest baby i've ever seen. She was also very sociable and never cried when seeing a new face (at least not mine, anyway). Every minute today, i thought of her, how i had given her her biberons when she had just been born and how she had grown in 19 months. i just wish i could gently push her hair from her face one more time and see her little smile. Her family moved in to Paris and we all had to part. The last time i saw her, i helped her sit down in her pushchair. It was raining.

Her funerals will occur Friday 4th in Paris at 2:30 PM.